really?? am i ever gonna learn?????

ok so first off... im gonna be pissy about my 'runner buddy' app on my ph... why .. the ... heck... do you have a RUNNING... notice key word.. running... app.. for a phone if when you run.. the dangblasted thing shuts off???????? huh????

secondly i am gonna be pissy about my lack of memory.... there is a reason i have a knee brace.. it is so that when i am physically active that i can wear it without torquing anything.. do you think i can remember that BEFORE... again.. note key word.. BEFORE i leave for my run??????? oh noooooo it is remembered when I am about 4 blocks from home... and then i think oh no problem.. i can do it without it.... 2 runs in... nope... so then i power walk the rest of it....... mind you.... i am still pissy about the first thing.. cuz i get back to the house... after power walking.. THREE blocks farther than any other time... only to find out that the dang buddy runner didnt work properly... .. so i know i went over a mile and a half..  and it took me 22 minutes to walk it...

So i have decided i am gonna make out 3.2 miles and just walk it every day until i can run it... yup thats what i am gonna do... i got you fixed you stupid buddy runner..... soooo for what it did record... it is listed below.....

1.09 miles
18.28 minutes
15.51 pace per mile

the  numbers suck but thats what i get for taking 4 days off.. i cant do the run rest days... it sucks.. i am not motivated when there are rest days.. it is an all or none kind of thing.... ergggg... so mappin out 3.2 and then i am gonna conquer the damn thing!!! you are the  mountain and i am gonna win.... so stick that in yer pipe and smoke it!!!

and yes.. im pissy about the whole run/walk thing tonight.. i shoulda never let myself get to where i have to work this damn hard to do something i love so much!!!! frick it all anyway!!!!

48 days to race day!!!

sooo today.. i procrastinated.. i napped.. i cooked.. i cleaned.. i surfed.. everything i could to get out of doing the walk/run.... everything i could think of and then lo and behold.. my running partner.. jessica posts... going for a run.... oye!!!! that did it.. self... say to I get ye arse going... you are doing this for health and for a reason.... lol... i did not run as i took the dog with me... but power walked the same distance as I ran 1.36 miles now here is the kicker.... the other day with the run/walk combo.. my pace was 16.3 minutes per mile.... today power walking the same distance...14.52 minutes per mile... now HOW does THAT happen?? I shave a minute and half (give or take) off the pace.. just by walking?? does that have something to do with building up endurance or what??? not sure... but will tell you that  i feel better after having done it..... and should not procrastinate so long.... oh and the dog.. well she better shape up or she doesnt get to go anymore...pulling and crankin... not good for the pace... but by the end of  the power walk she was draggin but and did whatever i wanted... hahaha.. the excercise is good for her too....

so the countdown begins.. April is at the end of the month and May 14th will be here before you know it. 48 days to race day!!! Bring on the 5 k!!

:)

20 minute bike ride that wasnt

ok sooo... same old story.... self talking I into getting outta bed..... just get up wouldya?? self is pretty damn tired of the whole talking thing before the eyes are even open...... lol.... so I got outta bed..... not too sore.... SHOCK!!!!! muscles on upper legs.. thigh muscle i think they are called..... a lil sore... but nothing more than that.... so i hop on the bike.... at about the 3 min mark.. im like shiot!!! and i thought this was gonna be easy..... self its all YOUR fault I am on this bike..... well I keep biking and I am like.... what on earth... this should not be this hard.... it is like somone turned the tension way up on the bike...... so i turn it WAAAYYYYYY down... now any of you that have a bike know that if you turn it WAAAAYYY down, it should spin like a top.... nope....... so i push through to the 18.5 minute mark..... its getting harder... its making noises.. its squeakin and grindin... and then it turns no more.......... :(  :( I need my bike...... imagine that.. I want that stupid bike..... lol... so.. am gonna have it looked at tonight... otherwise I am gonna have to buy a new one..... it IS ten years old........ but its gotten more use in the last 2 months than the entire 10 years together and I think I shocked it into a heart attack.... lmao.....

so the ride was 1.5 minutes shorter... but it was a lot harder work out

I can say that my right hip joint is sore.....like way down deep inside sore..... i hope it behaves itself...... i dont want to have a trip to the doc or anything like that....

ok.. so day two... consistent...one day at a time.. one square on the plan at a time..... may 14 will be here before you know it..... I am ssoooooooooo excited!!!! I cant tell you.... and its not about form... or the way i look... or running the ENTIRE 5 k... its about the start... what it took to get there... what it is going to take to get thru.... and crossing the finish line...... thats the goal... I CAN do anything!!!!!

holy hannah bat man!!!!! that was spose to be easy??????

ok so its been a bit since i have written anything.. Dallas a week ago if i am correct... well today started the first official running day... like really running... like run 1 min walk 1 min for 20 minutes..... now WTH said that was spose to be easy..... the first walking min was good... first running minute was like.. i can do this... second walking minute... man i gotta catch my breath... man the bones in my feet hurt.... the second running minute.. holy shit... that was one minute walking....... in the duration of this second running minute..... the thought process went like this..... WTH was i thinking??? do I really wanna run a fricken 5 k?? and more than one to boot??? OMG thank goodness its a walking minute now.....what??? now that was a short walking minute!!! no fair..... ok.. here we go again... running.. ok im in a rhythm.. maybe... ok cant .... breathe....... YES walking minute...... now we are on to the 4th walking minute..... note to self.. no matter how damn cold it is outside.. two layers of sweats... a thermal undershirt.. a tshirt and a sweatshirt is too much damn clothing!!!!!! YES walking minute 5.... so we are at ten now..... time to turn around and head home....... what?? run you say.... i say no... im walking 2... i need my breath..... now dont you  know that was the shortest damn two minutes ever!!!! running minute 6.... this isnt so bad... i think i can do this... now is it because I hit the back end of the 20 minutes?? who knows.... it also hits me that damn... the knee hurts (old basketball injury), welll duh.. next time wear your brace.. thats what its for..... sooo walked the last 8 minutes.. sweating... outta breath.... but i did it.... I CAN do this..... that stats are not impressive.. but they are good to me!!!

Walked with my friend on Friday.. and even walking I could do the 5k in about an hour or more..... tonight...

1.36 miles
16.3 per mile (which means I could walk run the 5 k in 48 minutes.... shaving 12 minutes OFF the Friday walk time)

I feel accomplished... I am reaffirming that I can do this.....I believe in myself.. even if others do not.. and NOTHING and I mean NOTHING will keep me from doing this... it is for me.....(well sans broken bones etc... lol)

So if you can not support me.... EVERY DAY.... get the hell outta my way and watch me run ......

btw.. if you are offended by my language or how I express myself... dont read it.. its that simple.... hence why its not a full blown in your face thing that you HAVE to read daily on Fbook......

day 18.... honestly feels pretty good

so i was able to sleep in this morning.. or at least i should say that i could have slept in this morning.. but wouldnt you know it.. 615 the eyes pop open... i tell self... self you can sleep for 45 more minutes.... i says no get outta bed.... self says but really i dont have too.. not procrastinating... so i had this conversation with self for 15 minutes then said to heck with it... up i got and onto the bike... yup yup i did... lol.... and no i am not crazy... i have these conversations alll the time ya know.... lol..

today felt really really good... 30 minutes came and went like a breeze.. its that last 10 that i am pushing for this week that is killing me... soon its gonna be another ten... lol...

no early morning workout tomorrow as i am flying to dallas for a few days... but once i get to the hotel i will find the room and work out in the after noon since conference does not start til 5.. :) todays stats not as good as yesterdays... but i was on the bike and thats all that matters :)

‎40 minutes 27 MPH 16.64 miles 832.1 calories

day 17... much much better

why is it that one has to talk self into getting out of bed when what is being done is good for self???? seriously?? then i rush around trying to get ready for work so i am not late... if i would just get my crazy butt outta bed when the alarm goes off instead of hitting snooze til the last very second.... i would not feel rushed.... uggghhhh... some day.. i will learn... hahahhaha probably not!!!

today i did go ten minutes longer.. and boy!!!! do my legs feel it.... lol.... here are today's stats..... pretty proud that i get the average mph up!!!

‎40minutes....17.02 miles.. 855.6 calories 28 mph average

day 16....might as well be day 1

ok sooo... didnt bike friday because the hips were giving me fits.... then the kiddos were here for the weekend.... so today... almost feels like day 1 again.... what the heck!!!!! not to mention combine super late night with some adult beverages makes it very difficult to get outta bed in the morning!!!!!!! hence no full 30 minutes because i can not be late to work today..... speaking of today.. its going to be a long one... have a breakfast meeting at 830 and then work til 630.. oye!!!!!!! shoot me now... hahaha its all good though

the one thing I will say though is that it is getting easier and easier to just get up and do it... no matter what i try to say to myself in the morning to talk myself out of it.. and yes... i am still trying to talk myself out of excercising.. EVERY morning... hahahaha

today's stats.. cuz i gotta run or be late for work....

‎8.47 miles...23.07 minutes 437.6 calories 26mph average

day 12 and back at it....

sooooo back on the horse... or bike rather... as they say... however let me just vent a bit... i almost did not get on the bike.... one thing i hate more than any other.. is someone telling me what i should do and telling me to get up and do it.... i happen to think i am old enough to do whatever I want to do..... and will damn well do it when i want to and not when it is demanded...... not sure how it long it will take someone to learn that lesson.... but it better be soon..... ok vent over!!!

so i laid in bed..... saying im not gettin on the bike.. you cant make me.... then realizing i was being just as immature as the person who told me what to do...... and i reminded myself that i am doing this for ME not someone else... ME and the only person i would harm by not getting on the bike was... u got it... me..... so i wasted a whole ten minutes being pissy about being told what to do...... and figured i would only ride for 20 minutes cuz i did not want to be late for work..... then i said no ill ride til 7.... that woulda put me at 22 minutes.... so at that point i was like whats another 8 minutes??? lol... dont ya love how i reason with myself on things..... so it was 30 minutes.... go me... still need to buy my shoes....

on another exciting note.. i entered the 5th 3rd river run contest to win my FREE entrance and guess what??? I did..... the story i submitted is posted below :)

"I ran track in high school years ago and loved it! I also coached cross country for a couple of years. Over the course of 20 years I put on weight to the tune of 420+#'s and then had gastric bypass surgery 3 years ago and have lost a tota...l of 220 #'s. I have since been diagnosed with early onset of degenerative osteo arthritis in both hips. I will not let this stop me from living my life! This is my victory song, this is the start of my new running life. This will be my first race since high school and I have 2 friends at this point who are running with me and a whole crew of family and loved ones supporting me. I am running the 5k, and am running into my life and my future :) That is my story and this is my life!!"

My life won me a free entrance... this is where I am at and where I am going.... today's numbers are below...

‎26mph avg....639.8 calories....12.73 miles.....30.20 minutes