ok so I wake up bright and early this morning.. in a stuffy room with damn birds chirping and then i realize... yup the fan is off!! dammit!! I can .... not.... sleep... in the summer time without the fan on... just cant.. and i dont care how many covers i am sleepin under or what kind of pj's i am wearing.. i want the damn fan on...... sooo.. awake.. irritated.. hot... and STILL tired.... i do the kind thing and get out of bed.... and decide to go burn off some irritation.....
so the whole time i am walking... i am trying to burn off negative thoughts.. it sucks when you wake up pissed off........could be why I had a great calorie burn today... maybe i should get angry the day of the race.... what do ya think?? lol
sooo.. walk walk walk.. thinking oh ill just cut this short... then thinking.. nope i need to walk so more.. so walk walk walk... turn the corner.....and realize hardly anyone is awake on a sunday morning.. go figure.. only the people walking and running... interesting....
anyway... at least i have a contructive outlet in which to vent....
btw... did you know that one of my legs is shorter than the other... the one that has the most hip pain is shorter.... and is a big reason why i have pain especially when I am walk/running. streets are sloped so if i am running on the right side my right leg has to fall further than my left and that creates more intense jarring... sooo.. i have to sidewalk it.. or run in the middle where it is flattest..... thanks Doc M
Anyway.. off for a shower... then a somewhat relaxing afternoon and then U2Concert....
numbers are below:
1.89 miles
35min 39 sec
18.54 min/mile
297 calorie
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
oh sweet running.. how i have missed you.... NOT!!
ok so i have been procrastinating and procrastinating... ok 6 weeks of procrastinating on getting back out there..... I could not walk for 2 days after my race and i really thought that i was gonna die..... whodathunkit.... i did not die!!! hahahhaa
so for days i been saying... cmon kandy.. get out there.. just walk a lil bit... just ride the bike... just do SOMETHING!!!! so finally.... today.... sitting here after work i said.. today is the day..... i would constantly see every night...peeps walking.. running blading... riding.. by my livingroom..... but here i am.. no homework.. no excuses as to why i should not get off my lazy butt... cuz really.. thats all it was.. lazy butt.....
so i got home.. sat down....... then said.. im gonna do it.... so i got up got changed... and off i went... with dog and mark in tow.... hahhaaha
i am shocked my time... it is still on pace... so below are the numbers
1.6 miles
28 min 55 seconds
18.03 per mile
185 cal
I also entered myself into a lottery to run the Labor Day Run with the Governor across the Mackinac Bridge... and guess what??? I was selected... however you have to be able to run a 12 min mile... soooooo and that is alot more than 3.2 miles... i am contemplating it....
but I feel good... i found out from the chiro today that my hips are crooked so he snapped em back in... gonna do some chiro therapy to stablize them and hopefully that helps with all the pain.. anyway.. back on track.. :)
so for days i been saying... cmon kandy.. get out there.. just walk a lil bit... just ride the bike... just do SOMETHING!!!! so finally.... today.... sitting here after work i said.. today is the day..... i would constantly see every night...peeps walking.. running blading... riding.. by my livingroom..... but here i am.. no homework.. no excuses as to why i should not get off my lazy butt... cuz really.. thats all it was.. lazy butt.....
so i got home.. sat down....... then said.. im gonna do it.... so i got up got changed... and off i went... with dog and mark in tow.... hahhaaha
i am shocked my time... it is still on pace... so below are the numbers
1.6 miles
28 min 55 seconds
18.03 per mile
185 cal
I also entered myself into a lottery to run the Labor Day Run with the Governor across the Mackinac Bridge... and guess what??? I was selected... however you have to be able to run a 12 min mile... soooooo and that is alot more than 3.2 miles... i am contemplating it....
but I feel good... i found out from the chiro today that my hips are crooked so he snapped em back in... gonna do some chiro therapy to stablize them and hopefully that helps with all the pain.. anyway.. back on track.. :)
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Race Day!!!!!
So normally this blog would come immediately after a run or the race... but it is here now and I have really had a chance to collect my thoughts...
The drive yesterday was ok... the sun was out, it was hot.... got to the hotel with plenty of time to spare and just waited for Jess to arrive....
We went to Devos Place to get our packets... WOW.. what an operation.. kudos to 5th3rd for such a smooth event!!! Got my packet nmber 18132!!! and there were over 20k participants.... boy did the nervous excitement set in then.... i wanted to puke!!
So we go.. have dinner... retire to the room for some much needed sleep... do ya think the noisy arse neighbors would quiet down so we could rest??? Didnt they know we had a very important event in the morning??? Take your drunk selves elsewhere for goodness sakes
5:25am.. BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP WTH???? oh yeah.. it is race day!!!! OMG!!! IT'S RACE DAY!!! i jump outta bed..... go the bathroom and get dressed.... then realize the husband is not here yet.. whom said he would be here by 530 am... lol.... called him. ten minutes away... neener neener we beat you!!! HAHA!!
So we arrive at Devos Hall.. amazingly we get a close park. right under the building... 6$ cant beat that.... we go into the hall and people are milling about.... now i really wanna puke.... oh and did i mention it is raining... lol where the heck did the sun go?? so we walk around... people are racing to get their packets....cuz they were late... no no no.. lol
More and more people began to show up at it got closer and closer to 7.... we decided to wait outside.. under the awning of course... to watch the start of the mens 5k..... the announcer calls for the runners and what do you think happens??? YUP... the skies opened and it POURED!!!!! I am talking sheets of water... on top of them men... we ladies were saying please stop before 730... soooo the National Anthem is sung... the countdown begins... and before you know it.. they are off!!!!
We wait a bit more and then go out to line up behind the 12 min miler sign.... brrrrrrrrrrrrr this is too cold.. so we go hide in the park ramp from the elements and what do you know.. nice surprise.. its WARM!!! so we stayed there until the crowd... which btw.. the ladies heat ofthe 5 k had more participants than the rest of the heats put together apparently... lol... us women are just awesome!!!! so they call for the start and we run out so we dont get left behind...
We start.. we stop.. we walk.. we start we stop.... we GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO and we are off... I started by running.. poor lil kid by us took a serious header.. like he tumbled and everything.... his dad helped him though.. but still felt bad... it was drizzling.. not a full blown down pour like the guys.. but it was cold and windy.... i ran .3miles before needing to give the hip a rest and so it went... run a bit. walk a bit... run a bit.. walk a bit.... then run a bit.. walk alot..... shoulda heard me when i saw the first hill... mind you.. NOONE said there would be hills?? WTH?? lmao.. and the potty word was not kind so i wont post it...
Jess says, lean into it.. you got this.. she was a great coacher to keep me on track.. we were shooting for under 40, then under 45 then.. just not to finish last.. the hills.. they killed me... but one two.. one two.. one two.. thats all i needed to worry about... one step in front of the other.... the shirt i wore had on the back.. EVERY STEP COUNTS and a lady commented on it that she loved it because every step does count....
I took advantage of the downhills and ran when I could... trying to just not be last.. i kept asking Jess how we are doing and she thought I meant time and I meant people.. I just did not want to be last!!! lol
As we came down the last stretch Jess asked if I wanted to run the last 1/4 and I said I will try... we rounded the bend and there was the finish line.. it then hit me.. I did this... I did not stop once to rest.. I ran when I could... I wasnt last.. I did this.... (sitting here now I am nearly in tears.. because I did this... I wasnt sure I could. but I did)
I started to run into the finish.. but my hip just wouldnt let me... I walked across the finish line.. and it was ok with me...
I got a banana and some water and a piece of bread... I had not eaten...
I felt GREAT!!! I was not outta breath.... the only thing that hurt was my hip..... so off to the doctor to see what can be done.. I am ready for my next 5k.... I am ready to RUN into my next 40 years!!
Who is with me?!?!?!?!!?
So Official results:
48 min 55 seconds
The drive yesterday was ok... the sun was out, it was hot.... got to the hotel with plenty of time to spare and just waited for Jess to arrive....
We went to Devos Place to get our packets... WOW.. what an operation.. kudos to 5th3rd for such a smooth event!!! Got my packet nmber 18132!!! and there were over 20k participants.... boy did the nervous excitement set in then.... i wanted to puke!!
So we go.. have dinner... retire to the room for some much needed sleep... do ya think the noisy arse neighbors would quiet down so we could rest??? Didnt they know we had a very important event in the morning??? Take your drunk selves elsewhere for goodness sakes
5:25am.. BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP WTH???? oh yeah.. it is race day!!!! OMG!!! IT'S RACE DAY!!! i jump outta bed..... go the bathroom and get dressed.... then realize the husband is not here yet.. whom said he would be here by 530 am... lol.... called him. ten minutes away... neener neener we beat you!!! HAHA!!
So we arrive at Devos Hall.. amazingly we get a close park. right under the building... 6$ cant beat that.... we go into the hall and people are milling about.... now i really wanna puke.... oh and did i mention it is raining... lol where the heck did the sun go?? so we walk around... people are racing to get their packets....cuz they were late... no no no.. lol
More and more people began to show up at it got closer and closer to 7.... we decided to wait outside.. under the awning of course... to watch the start of the mens 5k..... the announcer calls for the runners and what do you think happens??? YUP... the skies opened and it POURED!!!!! I am talking sheets of water... on top of them men... we ladies were saying please stop before 730... soooo the National Anthem is sung... the countdown begins... and before you know it.. they are off!!!!
We wait a bit more and then go out to line up behind the 12 min miler sign.... brrrrrrrrrrrrr this is too cold.. so we go hide in the park ramp from the elements and what do you know.. nice surprise.. its WARM!!! so we stayed there until the crowd... which btw.. the ladies heat ofthe 5 k had more participants than the rest of the heats put together apparently... lol... us women are just awesome!!!! so they call for the start and we run out so we dont get left behind...
We start.. we stop.. we walk.. we start we stop.... we GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO and we are off... I started by running.. poor lil kid by us took a serious header.. like he tumbled and everything.... his dad helped him though.. but still felt bad... it was drizzling.. not a full blown down pour like the guys.. but it was cold and windy.... i ran .3miles before needing to give the hip a rest and so it went... run a bit. walk a bit... run a bit.. walk a bit.... then run a bit.. walk alot..... shoulda heard me when i saw the first hill... mind you.. NOONE said there would be hills?? WTH?? lmao.. and the potty word was not kind so i wont post it...
Jess says, lean into it.. you got this.. she was a great coacher to keep me on track.. we were shooting for under 40, then under 45 then.. just not to finish last.. the hills.. they killed me... but one two.. one two.. one two.. thats all i needed to worry about... one step in front of the other.... the shirt i wore had on the back.. EVERY STEP COUNTS and a lady commented on it that she loved it because every step does count....
I took advantage of the downhills and ran when I could... trying to just not be last.. i kept asking Jess how we are doing and she thought I meant time and I meant people.. I just did not want to be last!!! lol
As we came down the last stretch Jess asked if I wanted to run the last 1/4 and I said I will try... we rounded the bend and there was the finish line.. it then hit me.. I did this... I did not stop once to rest.. I ran when I could... I wasnt last.. I did this.... (sitting here now I am nearly in tears.. because I did this... I wasnt sure I could. but I did)
I started to run into the finish.. but my hip just wouldnt let me... I walked across the finish line.. and it was ok with me...
I got a banana and some water and a piece of bread... I had not eaten...
I felt GREAT!!! I was not outta breath.... the only thing that hurt was my hip..... so off to the doctor to see what can be done.. I am ready for my next 5k.... I am ready to RUN into my next 40 years!!
Who is with me?!?!?!?!!?
So Official results:
48 min 55 seconds
Distance | 5K |
Clock Time | 50:19 |
Chip Time | 48:55 |
Overall Place | 4727 / 4894 |
Gender Place | 2909 / 2998 |
Division Place | 391 / 394 |
Age Grade | 31.1% |
Total Pace | 15:47/M |
Tot Div | 3265 |
Tot Gend | 2749 |
Tot Ag | 371 |
Sunday, May 8, 2011
5 days to the race.........
so.... i will be shocked if much running is done in this race......it will however be the only one i 'run'. i have spent the last two weeks trying to just walk throught the pain in my hips.... sucks when the doctor is right.... some mornings...the pain is pretty bad.... some days at work....it just sucks..... it is not that the heart isnt in it.... cuz it is.... however, if i have to crawl across that finish line, i will...... all i can say is thanks Jess... for being willing to walk with me.....
yes i know some think i am crazy..... but i will do this....
yes i know some think i am crazy..... but i will do this....
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
18 days til the race.............erggggg
doctors orders smocktors orders....... well ok....maybe im not always right.... not llike that has never been known to happen.... so amidst all the medical crap of the last week... ordered to take a week off to rest my hips because they hurt so bad that walking in the morning was a chore....surgery has made it so that taking anti inflammatories is impossible... so i suffer.... because i am doing what i want to do.... as they say no pain no gain????? well this is coming with pain.. and alot of it.....
so after taking a week and half off... walking tonight was a pain in the ass.... or hips... twice over.... made it one lap.. but i increased it so i got more in with the lap....
what really sucks is that the heart and soul just wants to go.... but the body says..time out..... this may be the one and only 5 k i get to do... i dont know anymore at this point... i may have to switch to cycling to get away from the pounding of walking and running...... here im thinking the doc is just being overly cautious say 'you can never run again'..... but then again... maybe he was right.... who knows... but i WILL run/walk this one in 18 days..... may be more walking than running..... sad sigh... but will know that i did what i set out to do... and have started a new chapter of my life.. embracing healthy.. embracing excercise... too bad i did not embrace it when i first had the surgery.. i might be back down to high school weight... lol.. but then again... who wants to be that skinny???? oh wait... me.. lol
However there is nothing saying i cant walk every 5 k right????? wonder how much time they alot for a half marathon and marathon to be counted.... like i could walk that too right?? do they have road races for bikes?? that would be fun too.... anyway.... 18 days and counting... whether you come out to watch, to run or can just cheer me on in spirit.... I would be forever grateful!!
1.27 miles
17.52 min per mile
198 calories
not good... not bad... it just is..... what matters is i am doing it right???????????
so after taking a week and half off... walking tonight was a pain in the ass.... or hips... twice over.... made it one lap.. but i increased it so i got more in with the lap....
what really sucks is that the heart and soul just wants to go.... but the body says..time out..... this may be the one and only 5 k i get to do... i dont know anymore at this point... i may have to switch to cycling to get away from the pounding of walking and running...... here im thinking the doc is just being overly cautious say 'you can never run again'..... but then again... maybe he was right.... who knows... but i WILL run/walk this one in 18 days..... may be more walking than running..... sad sigh... but will know that i did what i set out to do... and have started a new chapter of my life.. embracing healthy.. embracing excercise... too bad i did not embrace it when i first had the surgery.. i might be back down to high school weight... lol.. but then again... who wants to be that skinny???? oh wait... me.. lol
However there is nothing saying i cant walk every 5 k right????? wonder how much time they alot for a half marathon and marathon to be counted.... like i could walk that too right?? do they have road races for bikes?? that would be fun too.... anyway.... 18 days and counting... whether you come out to watch, to run or can just cheer me on in spirit.... I would be forever grateful!!
1.27 miles
17.52 min per mile
198 calories
not good... not bad... it just is..... what matters is i am doing it right???????????
Thursday, April 14, 2011
holy crap winter.. go away would ya??? berrrroniiiii
ok so.. the difference in temp tonight is 20 degrees... yesterday.. shorts and tshirt and sweating... today long shorts, flannel pants tshirt and sweatshirt!!!! cmon old man winter... go to sleep for a long long time
so did a quick mile tonight... didnt want to over tax my back muscles.... then tomorrow will do the full course again.. 3.2... then sat wedding dress shopping with my beautiful daughter... then sunday driving home.. then we go on repeat
no smart ass humour tonight... lol. just quick numbers... no sweat... just a nice quick workout!!
1.02 miles
17.56 per mile
158 calories
feel good... not exhausted or in pain.. just a nice good quick workout... tomorrow... will be another story and i am sure my brain will have thought of many more reasons why i should not be doing this... hahahaha
so did a quick mile tonight... didnt want to over tax my back muscles.... then tomorrow will do the full course again.. 3.2... then sat wedding dress shopping with my beautiful daughter... then sunday driving home.. then we go on repeat
no smart ass humour tonight... lol. just quick numbers... no sweat... just a nice quick workout!!
1.02 miles
17.56 per mile
158 calories
feel good... not exhausted or in pain.. just a nice good quick workout... tomorrow... will be another story and i am sure my brain will have thought of many more reasons why i should not be doing this... hahahaha
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
The point where the pavement meets the road...........was tonight
First off... ever wonder what that means??? to many people many things.. tonight... to me... it was meet it or be beat by it... and i met it........ but lets back up to this morning
so i have a back cracker appointment... which to you all means chiropractic..... sooo i get in there... we chat.. he asks how the back is .. i tell him doc.... imma wreck... so he says get on the table.. we are gonna do it all at once..... so he hooks me lower back up to some electrodes.... he goops up the upper back and does ultra sound.... 6 minutes of that.... i first say about the electrodes... doc are these gonna hurt.... know what he says to me.... no.. its gonna feel a little strange at first.. but then you are gonna like it.... STOP!! why is it most men say that to women??? muhahahhaha so he starts it and its zinging away..... couple minutes he's like can you handle some more.. im like sure.... what am i spose to say?? u got me strapped to electrodes.. ultrasound on the neck and I am face down on the table..... lmao.... what else am i gonna say......
so we get all that done.. i get the good ole rub down and then he proceeds to crack the heck outta my back ...like popcorn i tell ya....
so that was the morning.... CEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRAAAAAAAZY busy day at work... been like that all week as a matter of fact..... and then home.... the second i get home.. say 'hey' to the kids and the hubs and out the door i go for my walk.
Determined I AM gonna do the whole thing..... having adjusted my route so that I pass my house 3 times....just in case something goes wrong ya know.... or in reality i say screw this im done.... lol... so mile one... i run nearly half of it turn the corner and can see my house and i start to think... ya know my back has been sore... i should probably only do one mile.... the closer i got... the more self said.. cmon.. just one mile.... and i said.. no keep walking... soooo i zoom right on by .. well not so much zoom as glide... lmao.... and around we go.... smells of wood fires and grills cuz it is 68 out ya know.. im in shorts and a big t shirt and my 'bugs' those would be my sunglasses... lol i should take apic!!sooooo.. i round the corner and see my house on the second mile... and say self... we are done once we get to the house... i say.. no we are not.. and this went on for a good 1/4 mile.. i am even with the house.......
AND............THIS..............IS ..............WHERE...........THE..............PAVEMENT
..............MEETS.........THE ..........ROAD
This is where I found out what I was made of tonight... this is where I believed in my self enough to know that not only did i WANT to do this.. I COULD do this......I looked at the house..... and I kept right on going.... and for about 1/4 mile I kept saying.. you could turn around... then I turned the corner and could not see the house anymore..... and then my mp3 player hit the tune... firework by katy Perry.... and I thought.. this is it... this is me... this is my song...... see the lyrics below... this has been my life....
for a girl who was pregnant at 16, a mom, a wife a full time worker and full time high school student as a junior in high school, and then divorced before I even graduated living in a women's shelter at one point.... to a single mom working a job and trying to get a college education.... to the woman before you training for a 5k, who works for a university with great people at a job that i love, who will be PhD a.b.d as of the end of June, who is the nonie to 5 beautiful grandchildren and mom to a gorgeous daughter (that same one from when i was 16) and have a husband and two step kids..... NOW... RIGHT HERE.... RIGHT NOW.... it is my time.... and i am on fire!!! and you will see what I am worth!!!
Bring on May 14 and the 5 k!!! I am ready... I did it... the whole 3.2 miles... I kicked your ass.. i took your name and number and I aint calling to check up on ya.. cuz i did it!!!!!!!!!!!
3.25 miles
55 minutes
17.33 min/mile pace
489 calories
I...........GOT.....................THIS!!!!!!
so i have a back cracker appointment... which to you all means chiropractic..... sooo i get in there... we chat.. he asks how the back is .. i tell him doc.... imma wreck... so he says get on the table.. we are gonna do it all at once..... so he hooks me lower back up to some electrodes.... he goops up the upper back and does ultra sound.... 6 minutes of that.... i first say about the electrodes... doc are these gonna hurt.... know what he says to me.... no.. its gonna feel a little strange at first.. but then you are gonna like it.... STOP!! why is it most men say that to women??? muhahahhaha so he starts it and its zinging away..... couple minutes he's like can you handle some more.. im like sure.... what am i spose to say?? u got me strapped to electrodes.. ultrasound on the neck and I am face down on the table..... lmao.... what else am i gonna say......
so we get all that done.. i get the good ole rub down and then he proceeds to crack the heck outta my back ...like popcorn i tell ya....
so that was the morning.... CEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRAAAAAAAZY busy day at work... been like that all week as a matter of fact..... and then home.... the second i get home.. say 'hey' to the kids and the hubs and out the door i go for my walk.
Determined I AM gonna do the whole thing..... having adjusted my route so that I pass my house 3 times....just in case something goes wrong ya know.... or in reality i say screw this im done.... lol... so mile one... i run nearly half of it turn the corner and can see my house and i start to think... ya know my back has been sore... i should probably only do one mile.... the closer i got... the more self said.. cmon.. just one mile.... and i said.. no keep walking... soooo i zoom right on by .. well not so much zoom as glide... lmao.... and around we go.... smells of wood fires and grills cuz it is 68 out ya know.. im in shorts and a big t shirt and my 'bugs' those would be my sunglasses... lol i should take apic!!sooooo.. i round the corner and see my house on the second mile... and say self... we are done once we get to the house... i say.. no we are not.. and this went on for a good 1/4 mile.. i am even with the house.......
AND............THIS..............IS ..............WHERE...........THE..............PAVEMENT
..............MEETS.........THE ..........ROAD
This is where I found out what I was made of tonight... this is where I believed in my self enough to know that not only did i WANT to do this.. I COULD do this......I looked at the house..... and I kept right on going.... and for about 1/4 mile I kept saying.. you could turn around... then I turned the corner and could not see the house anymore..... and then my mp3 player hit the tune... firework by katy Perry.... and I thought.. this is it... this is me... this is my song...... see the lyrics below... this has been my life....
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
I listened to this song on repeat for the rest of my walk.... every moment, every failure, every lost chance, every crushed dream, every wrong turn, has brought me to this moment.... this time in my life.....Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
for a girl who was pregnant at 16, a mom, a wife a full time worker and full time high school student as a junior in high school, and then divorced before I even graduated living in a women's shelter at one point.... to a single mom working a job and trying to get a college education.... to the woman before you training for a 5k, who works for a university with great people at a job that i love, who will be PhD a.b.d as of the end of June, who is the nonie to 5 beautiful grandchildren and mom to a gorgeous daughter (that same one from when i was 16) and have a husband and two step kids..... NOW... RIGHT HERE.... RIGHT NOW.... it is my time.... and i am on fire!!! and you will see what I am worth!!!
Bring on May 14 and the 5 k!!! I am ready... I did it... the whole 3.2 miles... I kicked your ass.. i took your name and number and I aint calling to check up on ya.. cuz i did it!!!!!!!!!!!
3.25 miles
55 minutes
17.33 min/mile pace
489 calories
I...........GOT.....................THIS!!!!!!
Monday, April 11, 2011
sooo one month and 3 days...and what do i pull??
just my luck.. i take 4 days off to get my back into order... get a damn massage this morning and not an oooo ahhhhhh massage.. a hey you got a knot let me get that out for you massage.... so i go walking tonight.. determined to go the whole way... i turn the 4th corner and what... yup.. pulled something in my calf... WTF!?!?! seriously.... so i have stretched it out.... its been rubbed out.... we will see how tomorrow goes... i am pissed off..i really wanted to do the full 3 miles... today and every day til the race... so pissed i want to cry...... im starting to want this more and more.... not for the weight loss or toning.. but because i want it!!!! i want to start.. i want to finish strong.. i want to prove i can do it not to anyone else but me and i want to do it more than just this one race!!!!!!!! #$%$#^$%&%%^*%^*&%* im mad!!!! *stomps foot*
so anyway... todays numbers
1.13 miles
19.15 minutes
16.21 per mile
184 calories
and i am still mad.. the numbers are good....43 minutes give or take for the entire thing.... but like i said... pissed.....
so im gonna take my pissy self and go do homework.... pfffttttt
so anyway... todays numbers
1.13 miles
19.15 minutes
16.21 per mile
184 calories
and i am still mad.. the numbers are good....43 minutes give or take for the entire thing.... but like i said... pissed.....
so im gonna take my pissy self and go do homework.... pfffttttt
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
dayum!!! note... to.... self....
so... note to self... lesson learned... when given the choice of directions to run... DONT run INTO the damn wind!!!! holy smokes batman..... that was a work out.... back feels good.. did not do the entire 3.2 miles because i could feel the back starting to kick in... stretched out good when i got home..... so hoping that helps... thanks Jen for the tips and insight.. will definitely heed your wisdom cuz i would indeed be sad shouldi not be able to run it.
Hopefully i will be into running by next week... my brain is ready to run.. my body almost feels like its time to run when im walking that fast..... so what is holding me back?? what is keeping me from just running?? probably the fact that someone is with me and would be watching and i am very self conscious about the way i look like wild turkey when i run....all feathers and no legs...... tomorrow is a rest day... so thursday... i think i will go solo and see how the running happens.... who knows... GREAT numbers today tho...
2.01 miles
30.35 minutes
15.14 min/mi
311 calories
the time is much better.. weird as i was pumpin into the wind.. which means we are at 45 minutes walking the whole thing.... lol... soooo running.... maybe shave 5 minutes off the time... who knows... i will next week i hope!!!
Hopefully i will be into running by next week... my brain is ready to run.. my body almost feels like its time to run when im walking that fast..... so what is holding me back?? what is keeping me from just running?? probably the fact that someone is with me and would be watching and i am very self conscious about the way i look like wild turkey when i run....all feathers and no legs...... tomorrow is a rest day... so thursday... i think i will go solo and see how the running happens.... who knows... GREAT numbers today tho...
2.01 miles
30.35 minutes
15.14 min/mi
311 calories
the time is much better.. weird as i was pumpin into the wind.. which means we are at 45 minutes walking the whole thing.... lol... soooo running.... maybe shave 5 minutes off the time... who knows... i will next week i hope!!!
Monday, April 4, 2011
sore...oh man am i sore
ok..soooo did not walk at home today.. but walked for 30 minutes with a coworker.. not sure how far we went.. but holy hannah batman... the muscles on ymy back HURT... yes i said HURT... not sure what went wrong.. but dayum.... heating pad.. motrin.. im hobblin around like a grannie...........oh.............wait...........i AM a grannie... hahahha but i dont want to hobble around like one......
so... no numbers to really post.... just gonna get up and get back to it tomorrow... push through the pain.... have a massage scheduled for monday morning if i can last that long... hopefully she doesnt kill me.. lol
happy monday blog readers.....
so... no numbers to really post.... just gonna get up and get back to it tomorrow... push through the pain.... have a massage scheduled for monday morning if i can last that long... hopefully she doesnt kill me.. lol
happy monday blog readers.....
Sunday, April 3, 2011
seriously?? (now ya know ya want to read it... hahaha)
YES!!!! today for the first time since i started this journey with me , myself and i.... there was no talking into... there was no guilt trip.. there was no coersion... there was just ok gotta go run/walk today and gotta do it before the rain hits.... so i got dressed.. got my music player.. got my phone.. (screw you buddy runner.. i fixed yer tail) and off i went.... (with two tagalongs.. hubs and mocha mae.. thank you)
so we decided to shorten it up a bit today.... we do the whole thing one day.. and half the next that is spose to be a rest day.. rest day for me = no motivation to pick it up the next day... i felt pretty good and there were not alot of thoughts going through my head today... i know right?!?!? imagine that..... and now you can stop laughing... lol
oy yeah.. as for buddy runner.. i fixed that stinker up right..... and i actually read the directions.. buddy runner is temperamental.... not like me who is even keeled all the time right?? lol... so my temperamental buddy runner has to see the sky to function properly.. whodathunkit eh??? so... no case... no carrying the phone in my pocket.. no.. i had to walk with it in my hand the entire time... but at least i got an accurate reading.... however, will have to investigate an easier way to keep the time and distance.. i dont care so much about the calories... but distance time and pace is important..... (listen to me... you would think i actually knew what i was talking about)
I will say that when i got home and having done the shorter distance... not out of breath.. barely a sweat broken and feeling like ... man i shoulda just did the other half..... but i also know that pushing it too many days in a row is not good either.. my right shin is having a fit today and thats part of the reason for shortening it today too....
I have also decided that am off the adult beverages until after the race and see where that puts me in weight loss and how i feel also.... me likey the adult beverages a bit too much right now.... lol... so... i is on the wagon.... lol....
so todays numbers are:
1.84 miles
32.57 minutes
17.57 min/mi
286 calories
so we decided to shorten it up a bit today.... we do the whole thing one day.. and half the next that is spose to be a rest day.. rest day for me = no motivation to pick it up the next day... i felt pretty good and there were not alot of thoughts going through my head today... i know right?!?!? imagine that..... and now you can stop laughing... lol
oy yeah.. as for buddy runner.. i fixed that stinker up right..... and i actually read the directions.. buddy runner is temperamental.... not like me who is even keeled all the time right?? lol... so my temperamental buddy runner has to see the sky to function properly.. whodathunkit eh??? so... no case... no carrying the phone in my pocket.. no.. i had to walk with it in my hand the entire time... but at least i got an accurate reading.... however, will have to investigate an easier way to keep the time and distance.. i dont care so much about the calories... but distance time and pace is important..... (listen to me... you would think i actually knew what i was talking about)
I will say that when i got home and having done the shorter distance... not out of breath.. barely a sweat broken and feeling like ... man i shoulda just did the other half..... but i also know that pushing it too many days in a row is not good either.. my right shin is having a fit today and thats part of the reason for shortening it today too....
I have also decided that am off the adult beverages until after the race and see where that puts me in weight loss and how i feel also.... me likey the adult beverages a bit too much right now.... lol... so... i is on the wagon.... lol....
so todays numbers are:
1.84 miles
32.57 minutes
17.57 min/mi
286 calories
Saturday, April 2, 2011
sooooo that wasnt so bad
ok let me just be pissy for a second... screw you buddy runner that stops 8 seconds in!!!! need new app!! or something.... then secondly.. what the heck is up with the uber itchy skin about 1 mile in???? do you have any idea how ridiculous it looks trying to itch your back and power walk at the same time??? pretty ridiculous i am sure!!!
Thank you husband person and mocha mae for doing my walk with me today
so last night i mapped out 3.2 miles..... when i got back to the drive my first thought was... im not sure i can do this.. thats a lot longer than i ever thought it was gonna be visually..... then self said... you wont know if you dont try... you gotta at least try....
so this morning.. up i got.... and the hubs and the dog and i started out...... got about a mile in and i was like this is not so bad.. but thats only cuz it was all familiar and i had walked it before... got about mile and half in and had to turn the corner and go up hill and thought. F&*!, this is gonna suck monkeys butt.... then my first thought was whats the shortest way home??? yup i did..i wanted to quit... bad.. i wanted to quit so bad... but i just kept going.... told myself.... u can do this...... so i kept walking kept pushing.. the pace slowed a bit.. but thats ok..... then i thought i can do this..... hahaha for about the next 5 minutes.... then looking for an out.. i asked the hubs... does mocha need to take a short cut home? he looked at me.. no she is fine but if you have to go we can.. im like what??? me?? never i am good!!! hahahaha
so on we went... ran into a bunch of other runners/walkers/ those trying to look like they are running but look like they are dieing... lol...everyone was nice and waved and said good morning
so the jist is that we went 2.8 miles in 41 minutes... the dog did poop out along with my hips.... but i am sure it will just be an endurance thing... no running... just walking.. and thats a great time... so no complaints.... for someone that went from 135 and three sports... to 420#'s and barely able to walk across the room.... to 215# and getting ready for a 5k..... i wont complain... and just relish that i AM walking/running into the rest of my life.. i wont quit... i may have to daily talk myself into .. but that is ok... its not how i got there... its THAT i got there. :)
Thank you husband person and mocha mae for doing my walk with me today
so last night i mapped out 3.2 miles..... when i got back to the drive my first thought was... im not sure i can do this.. thats a lot longer than i ever thought it was gonna be visually..... then self said... you wont know if you dont try... you gotta at least try....
so this morning.. up i got.... and the hubs and the dog and i started out...... got about a mile in and i was like this is not so bad.. but thats only cuz it was all familiar and i had walked it before... got about mile and half in and had to turn the corner and go up hill and thought. F&*!, this is gonna suck monkeys butt.... then my first thought was whats the shortest way home??? yup i did..i wanted to quit... bad.. i wanted to quit so bad... but i just kept going.... told myself.... u can do this...... so i kept walking kept pushing.. the pace slowed a bit.. but thats ok..... then i thought i can do this..... hahaha for about the next 5 minutes.... then looking for an out.. i asked the hubs... does mocha need to take a short cut home? he looked at me.. no she is fine but if you have to go we can.. im like what??? me?? never i am good!!! hahahaha
so on we went... ran into a bunch of other runners/walkers/ those trying to look like they are running but look like they are dieing... lol...everyone was nice and waved and said good morning
so the jist is that we went 2.8 miles in 41 minutes... the dog did poop out along with my hips.... but i am sure it will just be an endurance thing... no running... just walking.. and thats a great time... so no complaints.... for someone that went from 135 and three sports... to 420#'s and barely able to walk across the room.... to 215# and getting ready for a 5k..... i wont complain... and just relish that i AM walking/running into the rest of my life.. i wont quit... i may have to daily talk myself into .. but that is ok... its not how i got there... its THAT i got there. :)
Thursday, March 31, 2011
really?? am i ever gonna learn?????
ok so first off... im gonna be pissy about my 'runner buddy' app on my ph... why .. the ... heck... do you have a RUNNING... notice key word.. running... app.. for a phone if when you run.. the dangblasted thing shuts off???????? huh????
secondly i am gonna be pissy about my lack of memory.... there is a reason i have a knee brace.. it is so that when i am physically active that i can wear it without torquing anything.. do you think i can remember that BEFORE... again.. note key word.. BEFORE i leave for my run??????? oh noooooo it is remembered when I am about 4 blocks from home... and then i think oh no problem.. i can do it without it.... 2 runs in... nope... so then i power walk the rest of it....... mind you.... i am still pissy about the first thing.. cuz i get back to the house... after power walking.. THREE blocks farther than any other time... only to find out that the dang buddy runner didnt work properly... .. so i know i went over a mile and a half.. and it took me 22 minutes to walk it...
So i have decided i am gonna make out 3.2 miles and just walk it every day until i can run it... yup thats what i am gonna do... i got you fixed you stupid buddy runner..... soooo for what it did record... it is listed below.....
1.09 miles
18.28 minutes
15.51 pace per mile
the numbers suck but thats what i get for taking 4 days off.. i cant do the run rest days... it sucks.. i am not motivated when there are rest days.. it is an all or none kind of thing.... ergggg... so mappin out 3.2 and then i am gonna conquer the damn thing!!! you are the mountain and i am gonna win.... so stick that in yer pipe and smoke it!!!
and yes.. im pissy about the whole run/walk thing tonight.. i shoulda never let myself get to where i have to work this damn hard to do something i love so much!!!! frick it all anyway!!!!
secondly i am gonna be pissy about my lack of memory.... there is a reason i have a knee brace.. it is so that when i am physically active that i can wear it without torquing anything.. do you think i can remember that BEFORE... again.. note key word.. BEFORE i leave for my run??????? oh noooooo it is remembered when I am about 4 blocks from home... and then i think oh no problem.. i can do it without it.... 2 runs in... nope... so then i power walk the rest of it....... mind you.... i am still pissy about the first thing.. cuz i get back to the house... after power walking.. THREE blocks farther than any other time... only to find out that the dang buddy runner didnt work properly... .. so i know i went over a mile and a half.. and it took me 22 minutes to walk it...
So i have decided i am gonna make out 3.2 miles and just walk it every day until i can run it... yup thats what i am gonna do... i got you fixed you stupid buddy runner..... soooo for what it did record... it is listed below.....
1.09 miles
18.28 minutes
15.51 pace per mile
the numbers suck but thats what i get for taking 4 days off.. i cant do the run rest days... it sucks.. i am not motivated when there are rest days.. it is an all or none kind of thing.... ergggg... so mappin out 3.2 and then i am gonna conquer the damn thing!!! you are the mountain and i am gonna win.... so stick that in yer pipe and smoke it!!!
and yes.. im pissy about the whole run/walk thing tonight.. i shoulda never let myself get to where i have to work this damn hard to do something i love so much!!!! frick it all anyway!!!!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
48 days to race day!!!
sooo today.. i procrastinated.. i napped.. i cooked.. i cleaned.. i surfed.. everything i could to get out of doing the walk/run.... everything i could think of and then lo and behold.. my running partner.. jessica posts... going for a run.... oye!!!! that did it.. self... say to I get ye arse going... you are doing this for health and for a reason.... lol... i did not run as i took the dog with me... but power walked the same distance as I ran 1.36 miles now here is the kicker.... the other day with the run/walk combo.. my pace was 16.3 minutes per mile.... today power walking the same distance...14.52 minutes per mile... now HOW does THAT happen?? I shave a minute and half (give or take) off the pace.. just by walking?? does that have something to do with building up endurance or what??? not sure... but will tell you that i feel better after having done it..... and should not procrastinate so long.... oh and the dog.. well she better shape up or she doesnt get to go anymore...pulling and crankin... not good for the pace... but by the end of the power walk she was draggin but and did whatever i wanted... hahaha.. the excercise is good for her too....
so the countdown begins.. April is at the end of the month and May 14th will be here before you know it. 48 days to race day!!! Bring on the 5 k!!
:)
so the countdown begins.. April is at the end of the month and May 14th will be here before you know it. 48 days to race day!!! Bring on the 5 k!!
:)
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
20 minute bike ride that wasnt
ok sooo... same old story.... self talking I into getting outta bed..... just get up wouldya?? self is pretty damn tired of the whole talking thing before the eyes are even open...... lol.... so I got outta bed..... not too sore.... SHOCK!!!!! muscles on upper legs.. thigh muscle i think they are called..... a lil sore... but nothing more than that.... so i hop on the bike.... at about the 3 min mark.. im like shiot!!! and i thought this was gonna be easy..... self its all YOUR fault I am on this bike..... well I keep biking and I am like.... what on earth... this should not be this hard.... it is like somone turned the tension way up on the bike...... so i turn it WAAAYYYYYY down... now any of you that have a bike know that if you turn it WAAAAYYY down, it should spin like a top.... nope....... so i push through to the 18.5 minute mark..... its getting harder... its making noises.. its squeakin and grindin... and then it turns no more.......... :( :( I need my bike...... imagine that.. I want that stupid bike..... lol... so.. am gonna have it looked at tonight... otherwise I am gonna have to buy a new one..... it IS ten years old........ but its gotten more use in the last 2 months than the entire 10 years together and I think I shocked it into a heart attack.... lmao.....
so the ride was 1.5 minutes shorter... but it was a lot harder work out
I can say that my right hip joint is sore.....like way down deep inside sore..... i hope it behaves itself...... i dont want to have a trip to the doc or anything like that....
ok.. so day two... consistent...one day at a time.. one square on the plan at a time..... may 14 will be here before you know it..... I am ssoooooooooo excited!!!! I cant tell you.... and its not about form... or the way i look... or running the ENTIRE 5 k... its about the start... what it took to get there... what it is going to take to get thru.... and crossing the finish line...... thats the goal... I CAN do anything!!!!!
so the ride was 1.5 minutes shorter... but it was a lot harder work out
I can say that my right hip joint is sore.....like way down deep inside sore..... i hope it behaves itself...... i dont want to have a trip to the doc or anything like that....
ok.. so day two... consistent...one day at a time.. one square on the plan at a time..... may 14 will be here before you know it..... I am ssoooooooooo excited!!!! I cant tell you.... and its not about form... or the way i look... or running the ENTIRE 5 k... its about the start... what it took to get there... what it is going to take to get thru.... and crossing the finish line...... thats the goal... I CAN do anything!!!!!
Monday, March 21, 2011
holy hannah bat man!!!!! that was spose to be easy??????
ok so its been a bit since i have written anything.. Dallas a week ago if i am correct... well today started the first official running day... like really running... like run 1 min walk 1 min for 20 minutes..... now WTH said that was spose to be easy..... the first walking min was good... first running minute was like.. i can do this... second walking minute... man i gotta catch my breath... man the bones in my feet hurt.... the second running minute.. holy shit... that was one minute walking....... in the duration of this second running minute..... the thought process went like this..... WTH was i thinking??? do I really wanna run a fricken 5 k?? and more than one to boot??? OMG thank goodness its a walking minute now.....what??? now that was a short walking minute!!! no fair..... ok.. here we go again... running.. ok im in a rhythm.. maybe... ok cant .... breathe....... YES walking minute...... now we are on to the 4th walking minute..... note to self.. no matter how damn cold it is outside.. two layers of sweats... a thermal undershirt.. a tshirt and a sweatshirt is too much damn clothing!!!!!! YES walking minute 5.... so we are at ten now..... time to turn around and head home....... what?? run you say.... i say no... im walking 2... i need my breath..... now dont you know that was the shortest damn two minutes ever!!!! running minute 6.... this isnt so bad... i think i can do this... now is it because I hit the back end of the 20 minutes?? who knows.... it also hits me that damn... the knee hurts (old basketball injury), welll duh.. next time wear your brace.. thats what its for..... sooo walked the last 8 minutes.. sweating... outta breath.... but i did it.... I CAN do this..... that stats are not impressive.. but they are good to me!!!
Walked with my friend on Friday.. and even walking I could do the 5k in about an hour or more..... tonight...
1.36 miles
16.3 per mile (which means I could walk run the 5 k in 48 minutes.... shaving 12 minutes OFF the Friday walk time)
I feel accomplished... I am reaffirming that I can do this.....I believe in myself.. even if others do not.. and NOTHING and I mean NOTHING will keep me from doing this... it is for me.....(well sans broken bones etc... lol)
So if you can not support me.... EVERY DAY.... get the hell outta my way and watch me run ......
btw.. if you are offended by my language or how I express myself... dont read it.. its that simple.... hence why its not a full blown in your face thing that you HAVE to read daily on Fbook......
Walked with my friend on Friday.. and even walking I could do the 5k in about an hour or more..... tonight...
1.36 miles
16.3 per mile (which means I could walk run the 5 k in 48 minutes.... shaving 12 minutes OFF the Friday walk time)
I feel accomplished... I am reaffirming that I can do this.....I believe in myself.. even if others do not.. and NOTHING and I mean NOTHING will keep me from doing this... it is for me.....(well sans broken bones etc... lol)
So if you can not support me.... EVERY DAY.... get the hell outta my way and watch me run ......
btw.. if you are offended by my language or how I express myself... dont read it.. its that simple.... hence why its not a full blown in your face thing that you HAVE to read daily on Fbook......
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
day 18.... honestly feels pretty good
so i was able to sleep in this morning.. or at least i should say that i could have slept in this morning.. but wouldnt you know it.. 615 the eyes pop open... i tell self... self you can sleep for 45 more minutes.... i says no get outta bed.... self says but really i dont have too.. not procrastinating... so i had this conversation with self for 15 minutes then said to heck with it... up i got and onto the bike... yup yup i did... lol.... and no i am not crazy... i have these conversations alll the time ya know.... lol..
today felt really really good... 30 minutes came and went like a breeze.. its that last 10 that i am pushing for this week that is killing me... soon its gonna be another ten... lol...
no early morning workout tomorrow as i am flying to dallas for a few days... but once i get to the hotel i will find the room and work out in the after noon since conference does not start til 5.. :) todays stats not as good as yesterdays... but i was on the bike and thats all that matters :)
today felt really really good... 30 minutes came and went like a breeze.. its that last 10 that i am pushing for this week that is killing me... soon its gonna be another ten... lol...
no early morning workout tomorrow as i am flying to dallas for a few days... but once i get to the hotel i will find the room and work out in the after noon since conference does not start til 5.. :) todays stats not as good as yesterdays... but i was on the bike and thats all that matters :)
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
day 17... much much better
why is it that one has to talk self into getting out of bed when what is being done is good for self???? seriously?? then i rush around trying to get ready for work so i am not late... if i would just get my crazy butt outta bed when the alarm goes off instead of hitting snooze til the last very second.... i would not feel rushed.... uggghhhh... some day.. i will learn... hahahhaha probably not!!!
today i did go ten minutes longer.. and boy!!!! do my legs feel it.... lol.... here are today's stats..... pretty proud that i get the average mph up!!!
today i did go ten minutes longer.. and boy!!!! do my legs feel it.... lol.... here are today's stats..... pretty proud that i get the average mph up!!!
Monday, March 7, 2011
day 16....might as well be day 1
ok sooo... didnt bike friday because the hips were giving me fits.... then the kiddos were here for the weekend.... so today... almost feels like day 1 again.... what the heck!!!!! not to mention combine super late night with some adult beverages makes it very difficult to get outta bed in the morning!!!!!!! hence no full 30 minutes because i can not be late to work today..... speaking of today.. its going to be a long one... have a breakfast meeting at 830 and then work til 630.. oye!!!!!!! shoot me now... hahaha its all good though
the one thing I will say though is that it is getting easier and easier to just get up and do it... no matter what i try to say to myself in the morning to talk myself out of it.. and yes... i am still trying to talk myself out of excercising.. EVERY morning... hahahaha
today's stats.. cuz i gotta run or be late for work....
the one thing I will say though is that it is getting easier and easier to just get up and do it... no matter what i try to say to myself in the morning to talk myself out of it.. and yes... i am still trying to talk myself out of excercising.. EVERY morning... hahahaha
today's stats.. cuz i gotta run or be late for work....
Thursday, March 3, 2011
day 12 and back at it....
sooooo back on the horse... or bike rather... as they say... however let me just vent a bit... i almost did not get on the bike.... one thing i hate more than any other.. is someone telling me what i should do and telling me to get up and do it.... i happen to think i am old enough to do whatever I want to do..... and will damn well do it when i want to and not when it is demanded...... not sure how it long it will take someone to learn that lesson.... but it better be soon..... ok vent over!!!
so i laid in bed..... saying im not gettin on the bike.. you cant make me.... then realizing i was being just as immature as the person who told me what to do...... and i reminded myself that i am doing this for ME not someone else... ME and the only person i would harm by not getting on the bike was... u got it... me..... so i wasted a whole ten minutes being pissy about being told what to do...... and figured i would only ride for 20 minutes cuz i did not want to be late for work..... then i said no ill ride til 7.... that woulda put me at 22 minutes.... so at that point i was like whats another 8 minutes??? lol... dont ya love how i reason with myself on things..... so it was 30 minutes.... go me... still need to buy my shoes....
on another exciting note.. i entered the 5th 3rd river run contest to win my FREE entrance and guess what??? I did..... the story i submitted is posted below :)
"I ran track in high school years ago and loved it! I also coached cross country for a couple of years. Over the course of 20 years I put on weight to the tune of 420+#'s and then had gastric bypass surgery 3 years ago and have lost a tota...l of 220 #'s. I have since been diagnosed with early onset of degenerative osteo arthritis in both hips. I will not let this stop me from living my life! This is my victory song, this is the start of my new running life. This will be my first race since high school and I have 2 friends at this point who are running with me and a whole crew of family and loved ones supporting me. I am running the 5k, and am running into my life and my future :) That is my story and this is my life!!"
My life won me a free entrance... this is where I am at and where I am going.... today's numbers are below...
so i laid in bed..... saying im not gettin on the bike.. you cant make me.... then realizing i was being just as immature as the person who told me what to do...... and i reminded myself that i am doing this for ME not someone else... ME and the only person i would harm by not getting on the bike was... u got it... me..... so i wasted a whole ten minutes being pissy about being told what to do...... and figured i would only ride for 20 minutes cuz i did not want to be late for work..... then i said no ill ride til 7.... that woulda put me at 22 minutes.... so at that point i was like whats another 8 minutes??? lol... dont ya love how i reason with myself on things..... so it was 30 minutes.... go me... still need to buy my shoes....
on another exciting note.. i entered the 5th 3rd river run contest to win my FREE entrance and guess what??? I did..... the story i submitted is posted below :)
"I ran track in high school years ago and loved it! I also coached cross country for a couple of years. Over the course of 20 years I put on weight to the tune of 420+#'s and then had gastric bypass surgery 3 years ago and have lost a tota...l of 220 #'s. I have since been diagnosed with early onset of degenerative osteo arthritis in both hips. I will not let this stop me from living my life! This is my victory song, this is the start of my new running life. This will be my first race since high school and I have 2 friends at this point who are running with me and a whole crew of family and loved ones supporting me. I am running the 5k, and am running into my life and my future :) That is my story and this is my life!!"
My life won me a free entrance... this is where I am at and where I am going.... today's numbers are below...
Monday, February 28, 2011
so day 9....
today is day 9, have not excercised in a few days.. am up in ludington to say 'see you in a while' to a beautiful young woman whose life was too short but such a testimony to life. When I get home the excercise will begin again in earnest... i can tell the difference in the days that I do ride the bike and the days that I do not.
Happy Monday....
Happy Monday....
Friday, February 25, 2011
day 6.... rest
so today is a day of rest... no biking.. more because i have a day of training at work where i have to sit all day and can not just get up whenever i want to walk when the hips start to ache.... and btw... did you know that bike seats are the most uncomfortable thing to sit on???? yeah yeah they are!!!!!
I also fixed my scale.... but wont weigh in on it until monday... we will see what it says... lol... fun stuff maynard...
not much to write about this morning.. other than it feels a bit odd not to have excercised... but thats a good thing right??
happy friday!!
I also fixed my scale.... but wont weigh in on it until monday... we will see what it says... lol... fun stuff maynard...
not much to write about this morning.. other than it feels a bit odd not to have excercised... but thats a good thing right??
happy friday!!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
day 5....not so much
soooo hit the snooze two times.... contemplating not even getting out of bed today....then thought what good would that do.... hopped on out... hopped on the bike... watched the minutes slowly tick by... wondering why life is sooooo terribly unfair.... i know we cry foul when strife comes our way..... and we dont when the joy is there.... so am at a cross roads as i ride the bike..... i cant embrace the fact that 5 people in my family.... and we arent talking 80 year old aunts... we are talking a beautiful vibrate 26 yr old woman with her life ahead of her and a one yr old baby to love for a life time... we are talking a 45 yr old sister/mother who has so much to give and 3 boys to love and watch graduate... we are talking a 40 yr old dear friend who is as vibrant as the sun....we are talking 41 yr old sister who may be facing the battle again and the bfriend of a cousin... who are ALL battling cancer.... 1 of whom may not make it to her daughters first birthday next week.... 1 of whom hasnt been given til summer..... and i sit on my bike and peddle away... hoping i can peddle away the pain of knowing that my circle will forever be changed in a few short months........ so todays ride wasnt about training... it wasnt about running a 5 k... it was about finding some reason within the why's of life.... it was about attempting to make peace with something i have no control... it is in realizing that i can honor these people by living life and taking with me the memories of them......... so today's ride... for me.. for them.. for everyone battling this ugly disease.... and to live..........
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Day 4
ok so day 4 .. much like day 3....except no coersion needed... probably because i was able to sleep an hour longer and it was daylight when i had to get outta bed... lol
there was just a slight hesitation of... do i feel up to this today?? and then immediately just popped outta bed... turned on "Angel".. started peddling... checked facebook.. (obviously) played a few bubble burst games... and just peddled away.
about ten minutes into the ride the left hip had some sharp pains.. but i just powered through because i am quite certain they are going to hurt when i start the running... but about a minute later there was this loud pop and the pain was gone... soooooo makes me wonder how it popped out to begin with.... maybe someday i will get that checked.. hahaha
I am excited about the numbers today... hopefully they will only continue to increase. Have decided that I will only weight once a week during this process. Am trying to drink tons of water.. but i hate.... did i tell you i hate the taste??? but i try to power through...oye
so here are the numbers for today.... next week.. going to increase to at least 45 minutes if not an hour!!
there was just a slight hesitation of... do i feel up to this today?? and then immediately just popped outta bed... turned on "Angel".. started peddling... checked facebook.. (obviously) played a few bubble burst games... and just peddled away.
about ten minutes into the ride the left hip had some sharp pains.. but i just powered through because i am quite certain they are going to hurt when i start the running... but about a minute later there was this loud pop and the pain was gone... soooooo makes me wonder how it popped out to begin with.... maybe someday i will get that checked.. hahaha
I am excited about the numbers today... hopefully they will only continue to increase. Have decided that I will only weight once a week during this process. Am trying to drink tons of water.. but i hate.... did i tell you i hate the taste??? but i try to power through...oye
so here are the numbers for today.... next week.. going to increase to at least 45 minutes if not an hour!!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
soooo Day 3
so today is day three of the bike.... yes there was a lapse of 4 days in there for a trip.... probably not gonna let that happen again... today feels like day 1 all over again.... sucks....
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Day 2
soooo i thought day 2 was supposed to be easier than day 1... i was sure i had heard that somewhere... well let me tell ya... its not..... alarm goes off.. 6:25am... snooooozeeeeeeee I am like.. why on earth is that alarm so early.... and then I say.. oh... yeah.. thats right.. I said I would run a 5 k... and that entails actually getting up and riding the bike to start conditioning..... I tell my self.. 'self... really... you REALLY want to do this... just stay in bed.. it wont matter" Self says back.... ' get your a*! outta bed and onto the bike...we made a decision to do this for our health and we are gonna do it'
Sooooo self got us up... and the bike got us going..... 30.30 minutes this morning, 11.79 miles ridden at an avg speed of 26mph and 592.6 calories burned.
Hopefully at some point this either gets easier... or the clothes and/or scale show a difference....
by week two I am hoping to be up to riding an hour a day... I will be taking saturday and sunday off this week as we are heading to Wisconsin tomorrow to see Mark's family. But then monday morning I will be right back at it :)
Right now, Kylie is going to run with us, Jessica and my cousin Amanda is going to walk the 5th3rd 5k.... anyone else want to join??
Happy Thursday!!!
Sooooo self got us up... and the bike got us going..... 30.30 minutes this morning, 11.79 miles ridden at an avg speed of 26mph and 592.6 calories burned.
Hopefully at some point this either gets easier... or the clothes and/or scale show a difference....
by week two I am hoping to be up to riding an hour a day... I will be taking saturday and sunday off this week as we are heading to Wisconsin tomorrow to see Mark's family. But then monday morning I will be right back at it :)
Right now, Kylie is going to run with us, Jessica and my cousin Amanda is going to walk the 5th3rd 5k.... anyone else want to join??
Happy Thursday!!!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
The beginning
Ok so I have never blogged before, but I wanted to record this journey. I probably should have done this long ago when I started my weight loss journey. Better late than never right? and as I heard a small child say... just keep starting over.. :)
So I have decided that I am going to run the 5th3rd River Run on May 14, 2011 the Ludington Lake Stride - June 11, 2011 and the Mint City 10 in August 2011. my coworker and friend Jessica is going to run with me along with a girl I used to coach and mentor Kylie. I have support from friends and family and hope to see some if not most of you at the finish line.
This is a pretty big step for me. I ran in high school and LOVED it!! (yes my husband thinks I am crazy hahaha)! I had gastric bypass surgery 3 years ago March 3, 2011 and through that process and my own efforts I have gone from 420+ pounds to 215 at this point. I was at 195 and looked good, even my grammas said I didn't need to loose more weight. I think my body has settled into a comfortable weight... now it is time to just get healthy and tone... if loosing more weight comes from it.. great!!! if not.. I am ok with that too!!
So this blog is all about my journey to a new life and running. There will be times I will lament I am sure... but there will also be times to rejoice in goals and accomplishments. :) I want to be able to look back and read my progress.... so today.... it begins
I got up at 630 am this morning and hopped on the stationary bike for the first time in months.. and i mean MONTHS.. lol.. i thought oh I am gonna do 30 minutes straight... then about 10 minutes in.. i was like I cant do this..... but i turned on the tv.. put on some 'saved by the bell' and just powered through. I finished my ride at 30minutes and 19 seconds having burnt 545.5 calories ...10.05 miles for distance..... avg speed of 22. I felt pretty good when I was done too.
So I will ride every morning until we begin the running portion of the training. At this point just building the stamina. I also need to go get fitted for proper running shoes as well as clothing (all women know you have to look the part right???)
So come with me as I journal my journey.... follow and support.. even run with me if you want..... I am running... towards 40... towards health... towards the next phase of my life.. :)
So I have decided that I am going to run the 5th3rd River Run on May 14, 2011 the Ludington Lake Stride - June 11, 2011 and the Mint City 10 in August 2011. my coworker and friend Jessica is going to run with me along with a girl I used to coach and mentor Kylie. I have support from friends and family and hope to see some if not most of you at the finish line.
This is a pretty big step for me. I ran in high school and LOVED it!! (yes my husband thinks I am crazy hahaha)! I had gastric bypass surgery 3 years ago March 3, 2011 and through that process and my own efforts I have gone from 420+ pounds to 215 at this point. I was at 195 and looked good, even my grammas said I didn't need to loose more weight. I think my body has settled into a comfortable weight... now it is time to just get healthy and tone... if loosing more weight comes from it.. great!!! if not.. I am ok with that too!!
So this blog is all about my journey to a new life and running. There will be times I will lament I am sure... but there will also be times to rejoice in goals and accomplishments. :) I want to be able to look back and read my progress.... so today.... it begins
I got up at 630 am this morning and hopped on the stationary bike for the first time in months.. and i mean MONTHS.. lol.. i thought oh I am gonna do 30 minutes straight... then about 10 minutes in.. i was like I cant do this..... but i turned on the tv.. put on some 'saved by the bell' and just powered through. I finished my ride at 30minutes and 19 seconds having burnt 545.5 calories ...10.05 miles for distance..... avg speed of 22. I felt pretty good when I was done too.
So I will ride every morning until we begin the running portion of the training. At this point just building the stamina. I also need to go get fitted for proper running shoes as well as clothing (all women know you have to look the part right???)
So come with me as I journal my journey.... follow and support.. even run with me if you want..... I am running... towards 40... towards health... towards the next phase of my life.. :)
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