doctors orders smocktors orders....... well ok....maybe im not always right.... not llike that has never been known to happen.... so amidst all the medical crap of the last week... ordered to take a week off to rest my hips because they hurt so bad that walking in the morning was a chore....surgery has made it so that taking anti inflammatories is impossible... so i suffer.... because i am doing what i want to do.... as they say no pain no gain????? well this is coming with pain.. and alot of it.....
so after taking a week and half off... walking tonight was a pain in the ass.... or hips... twice over.... made it one lap.. but i increased it so i got more in with the lap....
what really sucks is that the heart and soul just wants to go.... but the body says..time out..... this may be the one and only 5 k i get to do... i dont know anymore at this point... i may have to switch to cycling to get away from the pounding of walking and running...... here im thinking the doc is just being overly cautious say 'you can never run again'..... but then again... maybe he was right.... who knows... but i WILL run/walk this one in 18 days..... may be more walking than running..... sad sigh... but will know that i did what i set out to do... and have started a new chapter of my life.. embracing healthy.. embracing excercise... too bad i did not embrace it when i first had the surgery.. i might be back down to high school weight... lol.. but then again... who wants to be that skinny???? oh wait... me.. lol
However there is nothing saying i cant walk every 5 k right????? wonder how much time they alot for a half marathon and marathon to be counted.... like i could walk that too right?? do they have road races for bikes?? that would be fun too.... anyway.... 18 days and counting... whether you come out to watch, to run or can just cheer me on in spirit.... I would be forever grateful!!
1.27 miles
17.52 min per mile
198 calories
not good... not bad... it just is..... what matters is i am doing it right???????????
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
holy crap winter.. go away would ya??? berrrroniiiii
ok so.. the difference in temp tonight is 20 degrees... yesterday.. shorts and tshirt and sweating... today long shorts, flannel pants tshirt and sweatshirt!!!! cmon old man winter... go to sleep for a long long time
so did a quick mile tonight... didnt want to over tax my back muscles.... then tomorrow will do the full course again.. 3.2... then sat wedding dress shopping with my beautiful daughter... then sunday driving home.. then we go on repeat
no smart ass humour tonight... lol. just quick numbers... no sweat... just a nice quick workout!!
1.02 miles
17.56 per mile
158 calories
feel good... not exhausted or in pain.. just a nice good quick workout... tomorrow... will be another story and i am sure my brain will have thought of many more reasons why i should not be doing this... hahahaha
so did a quick mile tonight... didnt want to over tax my back muscles.... then tomorrow will do the full course again.. 3.2... then sat wedding dress shopping with my beautiful daughter... then sunday driving home.. then we go on repeat
no smart ass humour tonight... lol. just quick numbers... no sweat... just a nice quick workout!!
1.02 miles
17.56 per mile
158 calories
feel good... not exhausted or in pain.. just a nice good quick workout... tomorrow... will be another story and i am sure my brain will have thought of many more reasons why i should not be doing this... hahahaha
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
The point where the pavement meets the road...........was tonight
First off... ever wonder what that means??? to many people many things.. tonight... to me... it was meet it or be beat by it... and i met it........ but lets back up to this morning
so i have a back cracker appointment... which to you all means chiropractic..... sooo i get in there... we chat.. he asks how the back is .. i tell him doc.... imma wreck... so he says get on the table.. we are gonna do it all at once..... so he hooks me lower back up to some electrodes.... he goops up the upper back and does ultra sound.... 6 minutes of that.... i first say about the electrodes... doc are these gonna hurt.... know what he says to me.... no.. its gonna feel a little strange at first.. but then you are gonna like it.... STOP!! why is it most men say that to women??? muhahahhaha so he starts it and its zinging away..... couple minutes he's like can you handle some more.. im like sure.... what am i spose to say?? u got me strapped to electrodes.. ultrasound on the neck and I am face down on the table..... lmao.... what else am i gonna say......
so we get all that done.. i get the good ole rub down and then he proceeds to crack the heck outta my back ...like popcorn i tell ya....
so that was the morning.... CEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRAAAAAAAZY busy day at work... been like that all week as a matter of fact..... and then home.... the second i get home.. say 'hey' to the kids and the hubs and out the door i go for my walk.
Determined I AM gonna do the whole thing..... having adjusted my route so that I pass my house 3 times....just in case something goes wrong ya know.... or in reality i say screw this im done.... lol... so mile one... i run nearly half of it turn the corner and can see my house and i start to think... ya know my back has been sore... i should probably only do one mile.... the closer i got... the more self said.. cmon.. just one mile.... and i said.. no keep walking... soooo i zoom right on by .. well not so much zoom as glide... lmao.... and around we go.... smells of wood fires and grills cuz it is 68 out ya know.. im in shorts and a big t shirt and my 'bugs' those would be my sunglasses... lol i should take apic!!sooooo.. i round the corner and see my house on the second mile... and say self... we are done once we get to the house... i say.. no we are not.. and this went on for a good 1/4 mile.. i am even with the house.......
AND............THIS..............IS ..............WHERE...........THE..............PAVEMENT
..............MEETS.........THE ..........ROAD
This is where I found out what I was made of tonight... this is where I believed in my self enough to know that not only did i WANT to do this.. I COULD do this......I looked at the house..... and I kept right on going.... and for about 1/4 mile I kept saying.. you could turn around... then I turned the corner and could not see the house anymore..... and then my mp3 player hit the tune... firework by katy Perry.... and I thought.. this is it... this is me... this is my song...... see the lyrics below... this has been my life....
for a girl who was pregnant at 16, a mom, a wife a full time worker and full time high school student as a junior in high school, and then divorced before I even graduated living in a women's shelter at one point.... to a single mom working a job and trying to get a college education.... to the woman before you training for a 5k, who works for a university with great people at a job that i love, who will be PhD a.b.d as of the end of June, who is the nonie to 5 beautiful grandchildren and mom to a gorgeous daughter (that same one from when i was 16) and have a husband and two step kids..... NOW... RIGHT HERE.... RIGHT NOW.... it is my time.... and i am on fire!!! and you will see what I am worth!!!
Bring on May 14 and the 5 k!!! I am ready... I did it... the whole 3.2 miles... I kicked your ass.. i took your name and number and I aint calling to check up on ya.. cuz i did it!!!!!!!!!!!
3.25 miles
55 minutes
17.33 min/mile pace
489 calories
I...........GOT.....................THIS!!!!!!
so i have a back cracker appointment... which to you all means chiropractic..... sooo i get in there... we chat.. he asks how the back is .. i tell him doc.... imma wreck... so he says get on the table.. we are gonna do it all at once..... so he hooks me lower back up to some electrodes.... he goops up the upper back and does ultra sound.... 6 minutes of that.... i first say about the electrodes... doc are these gonna hurt.... know what he says to me.... no.. its gonna feel a little strange at first.. but then you are gonna like it.... STOP!! why is it most men say that to women??? muhahahhaha so he starts it and its zinging away..... couple minutes he's like can you handle some more.. im like sure.... what am i spose to say?? u got me strapped to electrodes.. ultrasound on the neck and I am face down on the table..... lmao.... what else am i gonna say......
so we get all that done.. i get the good ole rub down and then he proceeds to crack the heck outta my back ...like popcorn i tell ya....
so that was the morning.... CEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRAAAAAAAZY busy day at work... been like that all week as a matter of fact..... and then home.... the second i get home.. say 'hey' to the kids and the hubs and out the door i go for my walk.
Determined I AM gonna do the whole thing..... having adjusted my route so that I pass my house 3 times....just in case something goes wrong ya know.... or in reality i say screw this im done.... lol... so mile one... i run nearly half of it turn the corner and can see my house and i start to think... ya know my back has been sore... i should probably only do one mile.... the closer i got... the more self said.. cmon.. just one mile.... and i said.. no keep walking... soooo i zoom right on by .. well not so much zoom as glide... lmao.... and around we go.... smells of wood fires and grills cuz it is 68 out ya know.. im in shorts and a big t shirt and my 'bugs' those would be my sunglasses... lol i should take apic!!sooooo.. i round the corner and see my house on the second mile... and say self... we are done once we get to the house... i say.. no we are not.. and this went on for a good 1/4 mile.. i am even with the house.......
AND............THIS..............IS ..............WHERE...........THE..............PAVEMENT
..............MEETS.........THE ..........ROAD
This is where I found out what I was made of tonight... this is where I believed in my self enough to know that not only did i WANT to do this.. I COULD do this......I looked at the house..... and I kept right on going.... and for about 1/4 mile I kept saying.. you could turn around... then I turned the corner and could not see the house anymore..... and then my mp3 player hit the tune... firework by katy Perry.... and I thought.. this is it... this is me... this is my song...... see the lyrics below... this has been my life....
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
I listened to this song on repeat for the rest of my walk.... every moment, every failure, every lost chance, every crushed dream, every wrong turn, has brought me to this moment.... this time in my life.....Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
for a girl who was pregnant at 16, a mom, a wife a full time worker and full time high school student as a junior in high school, and then divorced before I even graduated living in a women's shelter at one point.... to a single mom working a job and trying to get a college education.... to the woman before you training for a 5k, who works for a university with great people at a job that i love, who will be PhD a.b.d as of the end of June, who is the nonie to 5 beautiful grandchildren and mom to a gorgeous daughter (that same one from when i was 16) and have a husband and two step kids..... NOW... RIGHT HERE.... RIGHT NOW.... it is my time.... and i am on fire!!! and you will see what I am worth!!!
Bring on May 14 and the 5 k!!! I am ready... I did it... the whole 3.2 miles... I kicked your ass.. i took your name and number and I aint calling to check up on ya.. cuz i did it!!!!!!!!!!!
3.25 miles
55 minutes
17.33 min/mile pace
489 calories
I...........GOT.....................THIS!!!!!!
Monday, April 11, 2011
sooo one month and 3 days...and what do i pull??
just my luck.. i take 4 days off to get my back into order... get a damn massage this morning and not an oooo ahhhhhh massage.. a hey you got a knot let me get that out for you massage.... so i go walking tonight.. determined to go the whole way... i turn the 4th corner and what... yup.. pulled something in my calf... WTF!?!?! seriously.... so i have stretched it out.... its been rubbed out.... we will see how tomorrow goes... i am pissed off..i really wanted to do the full 3 miles... today and every day til the race... so pissed i want to cry...... im starting to want this more and more.... not for the weight loss or toning.. but because i want it!!!! i want to start.. i want to finish strong.. i want to prove i can do it not to anyone else but me and i want to do it more than just this one race!!!!!!!! #$%$#^$%&%%^*%^*&%* im mad!!!! *stomps foot*
so anyway... todays numbers
1.13 miles
19.15 minutes
16.21 per mile
184 calories
and i am still mad.. the numbers are good....43 minutes give or take for the entire thing.... but like i said... pissed.....
so im gonna take my pissy self and go do homework.... pfffttttt
so anyway... todays numbers
1.13 miles
19.15 minutes
16.21 per mile
184 calories
and i am still mad.. the numbers are good....43 minutes give or take for the entire thing.... but like i said... pissed.....
so im gonna take my pissy self and go do homework.... pfffttttt
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
dayum!!! note... to.... self....
so... note to self... lesson learned... when given the choice of directions to run... DONT run INTO the damn wind!!!! holy smokes batman..... that was a work out.... back feels good.. did not do the entire 3.2 miles because i could feel the back starting to kick in... stretched out good when i got home..... so hoping that helps... thanks Jen for the tips and insight.. will definitely heed your wisdom cuz i would indeed be sad shouldi not be able to run it.
Hopefully i will be into running by next week... my brain is ready to run.. my body almost feels like its time to run when im walking that fast..... so what is holding me back?? what is keeping me from just running?? probably the fact that someone is with me and would be watching and i am very self conscious about the way i look like wild turkey when i run....all feathers and no legs...... tomorrow is a rest day... so thursday... i think i will go solo and see how the running happens.... who knows... GREAT numbers today tho...
2.01 miles
30.35 minutes
15.14 min/mi
311 calories
the time is much better.. weird as i was pumpin into the wind.. which means we are at 45 minutes walking the whole thing.... lol... soooo running.... maybe shave 5 minutes off the time... who knows... i will next week i hope!!!
Hopefully i will be into running by next week... my brain is ready to run.. my body almost feels like its time to run when im walking that fast..... so what is holding me back?? what is keeping me from just running?? probably the fact that someone is with me and would be watching and i am very self conscious about the way i look like wild turkey when i run....all feathers and no legs...... tomorrow is a rest day... so thursday... i think i will go solo and see how the running happens.... who knows... GREAT numbers today tho...
2.01 miles
30.35 minutes
15.14 min/mi
311 calories
the time is much better.. weird as i was pumpin into the wind.. which means we are at 45 minutes walking the whole thing.... lol... soooo running.... maybe shave 5 minutes off the time... who knows... i will next week i hope!!!
Monday, April 4, 2011
sore...oh man am i sore
ok..soooo did not walk at home today.. but walked for 30 minutes with a coworker.. not sure how far we went.. but holy hannah batman... the muscles on ymy back HURT... yes i said HURT... not sure what went wrong.. but dayum.... heating pad.. motrin.. im hobblin around like a grannie...........oh.............wait...........i AM a grannie... hahahha but i dont want to hobble around like one......
so... no numbers to really post.... just gonna get up and get back to it tomorrow... push through the pain.... have a massage scheduled for monday morning if i can last that long... hopefully she doesnt kill me.. lol
happy monday blog readers.....
so... no numbers to really post.... just gonna get up and get back to it tomorrow... push through the pain.... have a massage scheduled for monday morning if i can last that long... hopefully she doesnt kill me.. lol
happy monday blog readers.....
Sunday, April 3, 2011
seriously?? (now ya know ya want to read it... hahaha)
YES!!!! today for the first time since i started this journey with me , myself and i.... there was no talking into... there was no guilt trip.. there was no coersion... there was just ok gotta go run/walk today and gotta do it before the rain hits.... so i got dressed.. got my music player.. got my phone.. (screw you buddy runner.. i fixed yer tail) and off i went.... (with two tagalongs.. hubs and mocha mae.. thank you)
so we decided to shorten it up a bit today.... we do the whole thing one day.. and half the next that is spose to be a rest day.. rest day for me = no motivation to pick it up the next day... i felt pretty good and there were not alot of thoughts going through my head today... i know right?!?!? imagine that..... and now you can stop laughing... lol
oy yeah.. as for buddy runner.. i fixed that stinker up right..... and i actually read the directions.. buddy runner is temperamental.... not like me who is even keeled all the time right?? lol... so my temperamental buddy runner has to see the sky to function properly.. whodathunkit eh??? so... no case... no carrying the phone in my pocket.. no.. i had to walk with it in my hand the entire time... but at least i got an accurate reading.... however, will have to investigate an easier way to keep the time and distance.. i dont care so much about the calories... but distance time and pace is important..... (listen to me... you would think i actually knew what i was talking about)
I will say that when i got home and having done the shorter distance... not out of breath.. barely a sweat broken and feeling like ... man i shoulda just did the other half..... but i also know that pushing it too many days in a row is not good either.. my right shin is having a fit today and thats part of the reason for shortening it today too....
I have also decided that am off the adult beverages until after the race and see where that puts me in weight loss and how i feel also.... me likey the adult beverages a bit too much right now.... lol... so... i is on the wagon.... lol....
so todays numbers are:
1.84 miles
32.57 minutes
17.57 min/mi
286 calories
so we decided to shorten it up a bit today.... we do the whole thing one day.. and half the next that is spose to be a rest day.. rest day for me = no motivation to pick it up the next day... i felt pretty good and there were not alot of thoughts going through my head today... i know right?!?!? imagine that..... and now you can stop laughing... lol
oy yeah.. as for buddy runner.. i fixed that stinker up right..... and i actually read the directions.. buddy runner is temperamental.... not like me who is even keeled all the time right?? lol... so my temperamental buddy runner has to see the sky to function properly.. whodathunkit eh??? so... no case... no carrying the phone in my pocket.. no.. i had to walk with it in my hand the entire time... but at least i got an accurate reading.... however, will have to investigate an easier way to keep the time and distance.. i dont care so much about the calories... but distance time and pace is important..... (listen to me... you would think i actually knew what i was talking about)
I will say that when i got home and having done the shorter distance... not out of breath.. barely a sweat broken and feeling like ... man i shoulda just did the other half..... but i also know that pushing it too many days in a row is not good either.. my right shin is having a fit today and thats part of the reason for shortening it today too....
I have also decided that am off the adult beverages until after the race and see where that puts me in weight loss and how i feel also.... me likey the adult beverages a bit too much right now.... lol... so... i is on the wagon.... lol....
so todays numbers are:
1.84 miles
32.57 minutes
17.57 min/mi
286 calories
Saturday, April 2, 2011
sooooo that wasnt so bad
ok let me just be pissy for a second... screw you buddy runner that stops 8 seconds in!!!! need new app!! or something.... then secondly.. what the heck is up with the uber itchy skin about 1 mile in???? do you have any idea how ridiculous it looks trying to itch your back and power walk at the same time??? pretty ridiculous i am sure!!!
Thank you husband person and mocha mae for doing my walk with me today
so last night i mapped out 3.2 miles..... when i got back to the drive my first thought was... im not sure i can do this.. thats a lot longer than i ever thought it was gonna be visually..... then self said... you wont know if you dont try... you gotta at least try....
so this morning.. up i got.... and the hubs and the dog and i started out...... got about a mile in and i was like this is not so bad.. but thats only cuz it was all familiar and i had walked it before... got about mile and half in and had to turn the corner and go up hill and thought. F&*!, this is gonna suck monkeys butt.... then my first thought was whats the shortest way home??? yup i did..i wanted to quit... bad.. i wanted to quit so bad... but i just kept going.... told myself.... u can do this...... so i kept walking kept pushing.. the pace slowed a bit.. but thats ok..... then i thought i can do this..... hahaha for about the next 5 minutes.... then looking for an out.. i asked the hubs... does mocha need to take a short cut home? he looked at me.. no she is fine but if you have to go we can.. im like what??? me?? never i am good!!! hahahaha
so on we went... ran into a bunch of other runners/walkers/ those trying to look like they are running but look like they are dieing... lol...everyone was nice and waved and said good morning
so the jist is that we went 2.8 miles in 41 minutes... the dog did poop out along with my hips.... but i am sure it will just be an endurance thing... no running... just walking.. and thats a great time... so no complaints.... for someone that went from 135 and three sports... to 420#'s and barely able to walk across the room.... to 215# and getting ready for a 5k..... i wont complain... and just relish that i AM walking/running into the rest of my life.. i wont quit... i may have to daily talk myself into .. but that is ok... its not how i got there... its THAT i got there. :)
Thank you husband person and mocha mae for doing my walk with me today
so last night i mapped out 3.2 miles..... when i got back to the drive my first thought was... im not sure i can do this.. thats a lot longer than i ever thought it was gonna be visually..... then self said... you wont know if you dont try... you gotta at least try....
so this morning.. up i got.... and the hubs and the dog and i started out...... got about a mile in and i was like this is not so bad.. but thats only cuz it was all familiar and i had walked it before... got about mile and half in and had to turn the corner and go up hill and thought. F&*!, this is gonna suck monkeys butt.... then my first thought was whats the shortest way home??? yup i did..i wanted to quit... bad.. i wanted to quit so bad... but i just kept going.... told myself.... u can do this...... so i kept walking kept pushing.. the pace slowed a bit.. but thats ok..... then i thought i can do this..... hahaha for about the next 5 minutes.... then looking for an out.. i asked the hubs... does mocha need to take a short cut home? he looked at me.. no she is fine but if you have to go we can.. im like what??? me?? never i am good!!! hahahaha
so on we went... ran into a bunch of other runners/walkers/ those trying to look like they are running but look like they are dieing... lol...everyone was nice and waved and said good morning
so the jist is that we went 2.8 miles in 41 minutes... the dog did poop out along with my hips.... but i am sure it will just be an endurance thing... no running... just walking.. and thats a great time... so no complaints.... for someone that went from 135 and three sports... to 420#'s and barely able to walk across the room.... to 215# and getting ready for a 5k..... i wont complain... and just relish that i AM walking/running into the rest of my life.. i wont quit... i may have to daily talk myself into .. but that is ok... its not how i got there... its THAT i got there. :)
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