So blog of mine.. it has been forever since I have written in you... so much has happened... a stroke.. a separation.. a 5k.. a 10k trail run that I did not research... boy let me tell you about that.. but another time.
so much has happened I sometimes wonder who I am these days.. I am not the same person I was on august 21, 2012 that is for sure... August 22, 2012 changed my whole life...... I had a stroke.. yup me... a stroke.... 3 days in icu.... nearly 4 weeks off work... not allowed to teach... if it felt good, smelt good, tasted good, looked good.. I could not do it.... was there an X factor... no... there was not... so.. I could stroke out in the next half second.. because I don't have something to say.. dont do this and you will be fine....
I had a left mid brain small stroke that left mini residual issues that in reality , if you did not know me before, you would not know it now.... but I know it.. boy do I know it... doing photography tonight.. the right side weakness surely made itself known.... my hand is crampy and sore for sure.... but I digress... I had a stroke 17 months ago and it changed my life forever!!!
I now am doing things I have always wanted to do... I have pr'd a 5k with a personal best of 38.... way under my prestroke time of 48+, way under my May2013 5k of 44+....
I went to a movie by myself for the first time... Lone Survivor.. could not have chosen a better movie for my first time ever alone.
I am learning to let go and live... to not give any power over me to people... to just take charge of my life... single or in a relationship.. I will be in charge
I do not have a relationship to speak of....but fill the solitude with my dissertation and things that make me smile.... or warms my hearts.. especially photography... :)
I have a tenk in May... my first half in June and a full marathon in the fall.... if I can handle the half.. :)
I have lots more to say about my next 40 years and will blog more often now.. it is a good outlet...
but this is good for now.....
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