soooo hit the snooze two times.... contemplating not even getting out of bed today....then thought what good would that do.... hopped on out... hopped on the bike... watched the minutes slowly tick by... wondering why life is sooooo terribly unfair.... i know we cry foul when strife comes our way..... and we dont when the joy is there.... so am at a cross roads as i ride the bike..... i cant embrace the fact that 5 people in my family.... and we arent talking 80 year old aunts... we are talking a beautiful vibrate 26 yr old woman with her life ahead of her and a one yr old baby to love for a life time... we are talking a 45 yr old sister/mother who has so much to give and 3 boys to love and watch graduate... we are talking a 40 yr old dear friend who is as vibrant as the sun....we are talking 41 yr old sister who may be facing the battle again and the bfriend of a cousin... who are ALL battling cancer.... 1 of whom may not make it to her daughters first birthday next week.... 1 of whom hasnt been given til summer..... and i sit on my bike and peddle away... hoping i can peddle away the pain of knowing that my circle will forever be changed in a few short months........ so todays ride wasnt about training... it wasnt about running a 5 k... it was about finding some reason within the why's of life.... it was about attempting to make peace with something i have no control... it is in realizing that i can honor these people by living life and taking with me the memories of them......... so today's ride... for me.. for them.. for everyone battling this ugly disease.... and to live..........
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