so i have a back cracker appointment... which to you all means chiropractic..... sooo i get in there... we chat.. he asks how the back is .. i tell him doc.... imma wreck... so he says get on the table.. we are gonna do it all at once..... so he hooks me lower back up to some electrodes.... he goops up the upper back and does ultra sound.... 6 minutes of that.... i first say about the electrodes... doc are these gonna hurt.... know what he says to me.... no.. its gonna feel a little strange at first.. but then you are gonna like it.... STOP!! why is it most men say that to women??? muhahahhaha so he starts it and its zinging away..... couple minutes he's like can you handle some more.. im like sure.... what am i spose to say?? u got me strapped to electrodes.. ultrasound on the neck and I am face down on the table..... lmao.... what else am i gonna say......
so we get all that done.. i get the good ole rub down and then he proceeds to crack the heck outta my back ...like popcorn i tell ya....
so that was the morning.... CEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRAAAAAAAZY busy day at work... been like that all week as a matter of fact..... and then home.... the second i get home.. say 'hey' to the kids and the hubs and out the door i go for my walk.
Determined I AM gonna do the whole thing..... having adjusted my route so that I pass my house 3 times....just in case something goes wrong ya know.... or in reality i say screw this im done.... lol... so mile one... i run nearly half of it turn the corner and can see my house and i start to think... ya know my back has been sore... i should probably only do one mile.... the closer i got... the more self said.. cmon.. just one mile.... and i said.. no keep walking... soooo i zoom right on by .. well not so much zoom as glide... lmao.... and around we go.... smells of wood fires and grills cuz it is 68 out ya know.. im in shorts and a big t shirt and my 'bugs' those would be my sunglasses... lol i should take apic!!sooooo.. i round the corner and see my house on the second mile... and say self... we are done once we get to the house... i say.. no we are not.. and this went on for a good 1/4 mile.. i am even with the house.......
AND............THIS..............IS ..............WHERE...........THE..............PAVEMENT
..............MEETS.........THE ..........ROAD
This is where I found out what I was made of tonight... this is where I believed in my self enough to know that not only did i WANT to do this.. I COULD do this......I looked at the house..... and I kept right on going.... and for about 1/4 mile I kept saying.. you could turn around... then I turned the corner and could not see the house anymore..... and then my mp3 player hit the tune... firework by katy Perry.... and I thought.. this is it... this is me... this is my song...... see the lyrics below... this has been my life....
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
I listened to this song on repeat for the rest of my walk.... every moment, every failure, every lost chance, every crushed dream, every wrong turn, has brought me to this moment.... this time in my life.....Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
for a girl who was pregnant at 16, a mom, a wife a full time worker and full time high school student as a junior in high school, and then divorced before I even graduated living in a women's shelter at one point.... to a single mom working a job and trying to get a college education.... to the woman before you training for a 5k, who works for a university with great people at a job that i love, who will be PhD a.b.d as of the end of June, who is the nonie to 5 beautiful grandchildren and mom to a gorgeous daughter (that same one from when i was 16) and have a husband and two step kids..... NOW... RIGHT HERE.... RIGHT NOW.... it is my time.... and i am on fire!!! and you will see what I am worth!!!
Bring on May 14 and the 5 k!!! I am ready... I did it... the whole 3.2 miles... I kicked your ass.. i took your name and number and I aint calling to check up on ya.. cuz i did it!!!!!!!!!!!
3.25 miles
55 minutes
17.33 min/mile pace
489 calories
I...........GOT.....................THIS!!!!!!
yay! i know the feeling about keeping the house close. i do that in case i have to pee. haha!
ReplyDeletelol you are so cute Jen!! lovin the tatt belly pics!!
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